I wanted to travel more, yet my mind kept telling me it wasn't in the budget - or that I don't have the time now.
I knew that was a sweet little lie. I knew that was just an excuse my mind was using to keep me small and confined within my comfort zone.
You see, waiting to do what you want to do because of money (or time) will keep you in that space with that story of "When I have this, then I'll go". Or substitute that for when I have this I'll do that.
Now, it wasn’t always clear cut for me.
I have been crippled with the idea of what my so called “gift” was. Over time I felt pretty sure it was just some made up bollocks like “purpose” (hold up, keep reading) and life forgot to give me one.
Danielle La Porte isn't your cookie cutter girlfriend. Na-uh, now way!
And she definitely ain't the girl in your BFF bandwagon who's a little vanilla - that’s for sure!
Danielle is an intricately layered book of wisdom with a solid sprinkle of honesty, a modest helping of anecdotal laughter bombs; mixed in amongst her White Hot Truth - and let's not forget the hint of love that lingers with her sassy-demure presence.
You know when you wanna change something because you’re tired of walking into the same brick wall? Then there’s this other part of you that keeps luring you back down that darn alleyway. And you know better.
Oh yes, yes you do.
BUT that Voice (you know the one) is effing seductive. It can charm you back into false illusions quicker than a rabbit outta a hat.
And so whaddya do?
What the EFF do you do when you want to make a life change, and you keep getting pulled into the alleyways of your mind?
You must share your story because if you don’t, you are doing a disservice to yourself and the world.
Your greatest heartbreak and the lessons you’ve learned must be shared, whether that’s to loved ones, a close friend, in a blog post or a goodbye letter.
Your moments of success must be expressed so that those who come after you know they are not alone on the journey and that whatever obstacles they face, they can get through them.
The time you experienced the goodness and kindness from another when you had lost hope in humanity, only you know what that felt like and only you can share it.
It can be scary to go against what the story is telling us, to override all logic and follow our gut instinct.
However, the more in touch we are with our truth, the harder it becomes to do things as a means to an end. Slowly the things that we take on out of a need for money, or because we think it will grow our business or enhance our lives in some particular way become much too taxing to our soul. They bring out the stress in us rather than the love.
I spent the weekend working on my latest book, which will come out in print in a few months. It explores a lot of different aspects of my personal journey and ones I feel you'll relate to.
One these I explored was the victim mentality.
Many of us (not everyone) unconsciously play victim to our circumstances. You may think you don't, I used to think so too. Until I looked closely at my journey. Naturally, when we turn on all the lights, we come to find a whole bunch of creatures we didn't know were lurking in our minds.
Boy do we make life difficult for ourselves at times, especially in those moments when we know the actions we must take in our heart and on the outside we fight it. We struggle with taking action, or following through or just being with what is.
I get it, sometimes you don't want to play stuck in the mud anymore! Sometimes you don't want to feel all those painful feelings inside your chest that you can't escape from. Some days you want to know what the future holds because not knowing is too big of a surprise!
Regardless of the days we want to throw our hands in the air, yell a stream of obscenities and quit upon our crazy-ass dreams, we carry on.
Why? Because the feeling in our hearts is so much stronger than all the set backs. Even when we tell ourselves we quit, we come back the next day or the next hour spurred on by a silent whisper in our hearts that says, "Just try again!" And so we do.